I can't believe it's taken me 12weeks and 6days to start blogging about this journey but it's better "late than never." So let's recap how we got to this point...
It was after Christmas, the end of the year when most people have time off and I was eager to catch up with friends who were in town. But first, we had a Dr appointment that we would get the results of our tests. It was past the 'year' mark and still no signs of a baby. I remember rushing to the appointment from work, parking and thinking, "Maybe we should say a prayer before going in?" But then again, we were already running late and that thought fleeted.
There we sat, not saying a word, and in walks the Dr. He's usually a soft spoken, laid back type of person, so no surprises there. He read some numbers, I tried to make sense of the comparisons he mentioned, which didn't set off any red flags...UNTIL I heard something about 0%. I honestly don't recall his exact words, but I recall the Dr saying he wouldn't jump to conclusions, to schedule another appointment and confirm more tests...that it wasn't the end of the world and there are plenty of options.
We walked out in silence.
Sure there are plenty of options, just none that were right for us. As much as I thought I would be ok with not having any more children, now, it was final. Confirmed. Something about 0% right??
I didn't know what to think. I didn't want to think about it. I didn't want to talk about it. I wanted to meet with friends, pretend like everything was fine and we didn't just hear that news.
